10 year reunion

Last night I attended my 10 year High school reunion.  I was so glad that I went, it was so nice to spend a night with a lot of my girlfriends!  Above is a picture (left to right) of me, Rachel, Brittney, Alison, Nicole and Helina.  I didn't know Nicole in High school, but she was super nice and fun to talk to last night.  Adam came with me, but about an hour and a half into it, his back really started to bug him, so I sent him home and I stuck around for the rest of the night.  They had a nice dinner, slide show, raffle and musical performance.  Then there was just a lot of visiting, reminiscing, and lots of laughing!  There were a lot of people who did NOT come (you know who you are!) that I would have loved to have there, but it was still a great night with these fun girls :)  The picture is pretty shotty, I had wanted to bring my camera and take some NICE pictures, but Adam said, "Oh we'll just use the I-phone....they take great pictures..."  Well, I beg to differ.  And the iphone left when Adam did, so this is the only picture I have unfortunately.  Maybe once they post some on the Viewmont website I'll steal them and post some more :)

On a lighter note.....

 Well, the last post was a bit deep, but I gotta throw those ones in every once in a while, right?  This is just going to be your typical, light, picture filled post :)  Starring my favorite little person in the whole world, Ella of course!  We had a really nice 4th of July.  Me, Ella, Adam and Lloyd got up early and went to a flag raising ceremony at the church.  Then we went to the Miller family cabin up in Lambs canyon for a barbecue.    Later that night, me and Ella went to my parents for a visit while Adam rested up for his surgery the next day.
Oh yea, Adam had back surgery!  He had what is called a micro-discectomy on 7/5.  They basically went in and removed the part of the disc in his lower back that was hitting a nerve, which has been causing him severe pain for the last year.  He is doing well now and excited to be rid of that nerve pain!  And now......pictures :)

I just thought this was hilarious, I mean, who would think a girl would get so passionate about green smoothies?!  

Ella and cousin Molly at the South Davis Rec. Center.  Ella was loving it, until she slipped and bonked her head on the concrete :(  She recovered quickly though.  Need to get her some swim shoes!!

4th of July at the cabin.  I LOVE this picture of Ella and Adam, they love each other so much!  And, do you love my Pinterest inspired fruit trays?!  I was pretty proud of myself :)

Ella and Zoey swimming at my moms on the 4th.  Give Ella some water, and she's a happy girl!

Honesty

Way back when I started this blog, I promised to be honest.  I promised to post the good with the bad, so that I don't falsely portray an image of a perfect life that would make other's feel bad about theirs.  Well, I have had a "bad" and a "good", so here goes.  As I was sitting in my car today during lunch having myself a good cry, this song came on the radio (yeah, I still listen to the radio, I'm old school like that).  I just wanted to share the lyrics because they touched me and made me feel better.

Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it ok
There's always some reason to feel “not good enough"
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction, oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
They may be empty and weightless, and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an Angel, fly away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference, escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees 


In the arms of an Angel, fly away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of an Angel, may you find some comfort here.




I was entering the grocery store on Friday, and before I could get in I heard an old man say from behind me "That sure is a beautiful baby you've got there".  I turned around to see who was saying it, and kind of had my breath taken away.  This man was a spitting image of my late Grandpa Pinson.  I mean, he didn't just sort of resemble him, he looked just like him.  He talked to me for a minute, telling me about how big of a family he has and how wonderful grandbaby's and great-grandbaby's are.  He again complimented me on how sweet Ella was, then went on his way.  At first, I thought to myself..."what a cool coincidence".  But after I just heard this song, I feel a little differently.  I'm quite sure now that my Grandpa Pinson, who for some reason always had a soft spot for me, knew that I was going to have an emotionally charged weekend and paid me a little visit.  It wouldn't be the first time, just the first time while I was awake.

Over the weekend several people that I love dearly butted heads pretty hard over FB.  It left me feeling like I was stuck inbetween a rock and a hard place.  Emotionally drained and deeply saddened for the feelings that were hurt with everyone involved.  I mean, what do you do when a family member and some best friends are having at each other?  In the end I decided to bow out of it completely, deleted most of my FB contacts, aside from family members, and vowed never to get caught up in online drama ever again.  This is something that would NEVER happen face to face.  It just ridiculous that it happens online.

So, still feeling sad today, I took my lunch break in my car and had a good little cry session, when this song came on.  I leaned my head back and closed my eyes, and I could feel the hug.  Not just imagining it, but physically feel it, and I knew exactly who it was from.  I've always felt close to my Grandpa since he passed, and this was another confirmation to me that he's looking out for me and caring for me from the other side.  This may be a pretty personal thing to share on a blog, but I'm all about being honest.

In the end, it is so easy to feel "not good enough", but all you can do is be exactly who you are and hope that it's enough for those who choose to be a part of your life.

Much love to those of you who take me for who I am and love me for exactly who I am.

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